Showing posts with label Short story. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Short story. Show all posts

Thursday, 24 December 2015

Bina Baideo

Whenever I fought with my elder sister, which we did quite often when we were young, my Deota would intervene and addressing to her and pointing to me he would say “First tote kar bhonti?” (Whose younger sister is she, first of all?) and then addressing to me he would ask the same question “First tote kar baideo?” (Whose elder sister is she first of all?) and the two of us would say “mur” (mine) in unison.
However, this story is not about my elder sister but about one of my cousins- from the maternal side. Bina. Yes, that’s my cousin’s name. Almost all my cousins are quite older than me barring only a few. Bina baideo, as I called her, was more than 20 years older than me. So, I never knew her well due to our age gap. Not well enough, to write a few lines on her.

She was my Jethi’s (maternal aunt’s) eldest daughter. The same aunt bore 6 more children after Bina baideo. Three more girls and three boys- all who were younger than her. I remember meeting her in my other cousin brothers and sisters marriage and other family gatherings and festivals. I never knew why she never got married until Ma told me about her one day.

When Bina baideo was young she had an affair with a boy but my Jetha (Baina baideo’s father) never allowed the two to get married. The boy later married another girl and went ahead in life. But Bina baideo didn’t. She decided to stay single.

I wonder how she took that decision never to marry in life, to always remain single, never to know what love of a husband and one’s own child(ren) is. Perhaps she could never feel the warmth of an embrace or the passion in kissing one’s beloved, what it is to feel the sweat when two bodies meet. What it is to call one’s own house a home. That void always remained in her throughout her life.
In her later years, Bina baideo took care of her ailing mother after Jetha (my uncle) passed away. She worked as an anganwadi worker in Hajo, not very far from her parent’s house where she lived. Things took a different turn after Jethi (my aunt) too died. I got the news over the phone from Ma who called to inform me that her eldest sister- my Jethi was no more. This was in 2008.

After I returned from Delhi in 2011, I saw Bina baideo twice or thrice (between 2011 and 2015). Whenever I accompanied my mother to her ancestral home in Hajo, I always ensured that we dropped by at Bina baideo’s place. The house I visited so many times in my childhood days began to fall apart. The last time I went there the mud walls appeared slightly tilted and the roof was on the verge of collapse. The house resembled her condition.

When I saw her in 2012 or 2013 she looked lonely and depressed. All her siblings, except one stayed all across Assam. Perhaps they were all busy in their own world, with their own families. One or two may have kept in touch with her providing her with the daily provisions. A time came when she totally stopped cooking for herself. It is then that her neighbours who also were her distant relatives provided her with the regular meals. Later she also stopped going to school from where she was withdrawing Rs 3000/ per month.

A few months back my mother and I again went to Hajo. The place is famous to the Hindus, Muslims and the Buddhists. It has the sacred Hargriv Madhab Debalay, Kedar Madir, Kameswar Mandir and Pua Mecca. I have heard from Ma that when she was young she saw Buddhists pilgrims from Bhutan coming down to Hajo to offer their prayers to Hargriv Madhab Temple. But now-a-days, they have altogether stopped. Perhaps it was due to the insurgency problem that plagued Assam in the last 2-3 decades or there could be some other reasons.

When I went to the verandah and peeped inside Bina baideo’s house I was in for a shock. The place stinked, there was cobweb all around. More than the condition of the house it was her state that troubled me. Her hair was all matted and she was all skin and bones. She was a diabetic and the pangs of loneliness were visible in her face. Every time my Ma and I went there we only offered her money, money so that she can at least eat something, so that it sustains her living. But this time I silently prayed to God to take her away soon, for I didn’t want Bina baideo to continue living like this in such a pathetic state. She had the means to make a good living but she never tried on her own. I wanted this to be the last time that I saw her, alive. I never knew God would listen to my prayers so soon. Today, on the eve of Christmas, God took her closer to Him. I didn’t cry when I heard the news from another cousin. I didn’t even pray for her soul to rest in peace. What I prayed is to give Bina baideo a better life in her next birth, if ever there is one.

Meanwhile, all the relatives rush in to her house to pay their last respect. Bina baideo lived alone and died alone.


Monday, 12 October 2015

Life in a boarding

Aditi is unable to connect to her mother on the phone. It’s her and the boarders’ phone call day. Every Thursday and Sunday the boarders’ of Gulmohar call their parents, 4 minutes on Thursdays and 8 minutes on Sundays. She (and Ngangranabi Thokchom, both from Manipur) is the only one out of the 28 boarders who didn’t get the line. The rest all signed in the phone call register.
The SA 1 examination is going on. Hence, some of the girls study till late night while the others are fast asleep. Aditi too fell asleep thinking she would be unable to speak to her parents.
I get a call somewhere between 10:00-10:30 pm. Generally I don’t pick up calls from boarders parents after 9:30 pm. But today I did when the office phone buzzed and “Aditi’s Ma” appeared on the screen. I went to room no. 4B. Her bed is no. 3, in one corner facing the window (in Gulmohar we call it facing DPS Guwahati). She was fast asleep.
When the rouser call rings in the morning at 5:30 am almost everyone wakes up on time except Aditi. When I take a round to check if everyone is awake and brushed their teeth, she would still be sleeping. I would go to her bed and wake her up gently. Once I was in such a round and as expected she was fast asleep, all curled up in bed. “Wake up, Aditi. Wake up, Aditi”, I told her. She opened her little eyes. I sternly commanded her to get up from bed and go. She was still in a half-sleep-half-awake state when she replied “Go where, Ma’am?” It was for the PT/ Yoga classes I meant. Even though I acted as if I was angry with her for asking such a question when she ought to know her daily schedule followed in the hostel, deep inside I was not. Her question only made me smile from inside.
She spoke to her mother first and asked her why she didn’t keep the phone with her. She told her mother that her tuck was almost over and asked her to come from Imphal to Guwahati to meet her and bring her the special Maggie cooked by her mother. In the hostel, most of the boarders eat uncooked Maggie as they eat Wai-Wai ­- raw.
She asked her mother about her father’s health, if the lump in his face has subsided. In all her innocence she beseeched her mother to pray to the Almighty to cure her father. She was crying when she spoke those words. Hope the one above us sees her tears and listens to her prayer. She later spoke to her father in Hindi and asked him about his well-being. Her tears stopped immediately as she started the conversation with him, as if she didn’t wish him to know that she had cried a moment earlier. I could sense a grim in her face as she spoke to him. She asked her father to “kick that doctor”- the one who was treating him.
I must have waited for more than 4 minutes by her bed. Shabana, Aditi’s roommate got up from her bed and climbed on to Aditi’s bed when she became emotional. Krishna, her other roommate who was sleeping peacefully until then too woke up when she was on the phone. Donu Kena, her Arunachali roommate had just entered the room after studying in the study room when I was about to leave their room. I wished all the 4 roommates good night.
Aditi is a very sweet girl even though she doesn’t spend much time in studying. She was in Sanskriti- The Gurukul, Guwahati before joining Royal Global School, Guwahati. She was my nephew Jonathan’s classmate in her previous school. She is in grade VI A now and seems to know her lessons well since she had already studied in class IV and V in Sanskriti (under ICSE) what she is studying now in grade VI in RGS (under CBSE).
The next day she had her mathematics examination. I went to see if all the girls had assembled in the corridor of the hostel before going down for breakfast. She saw Ginima, the security personnel, making pleats in Ritika (the youngest boarder of Gulmohar) and Shabana’s hair. She too requested Ginima to pleat her hair. While I was watching Ginima arranging Aditi’s hair I saw that Aditi’s left hand had some cut marks. I asked her how she hurt herself. She narrated: “Ma’am, while I was taking out the paint bottles from the rack under the study table, I hand accidentally hit the edge of the table and . . .” She made some strange sound like ‘dharang’ to express what happened later to her. I understood what she meant to say. She never came to me crying seeking some comfort or to ask for medicines to Hemlata, the resident nurse. “Had it happened to delicate girls like Urvashi from grade VII, she would have come writhing in pain, with tears in her eyes and even if it was just for a very minor scratch”, I laughed while saying this to her and the other boarders who had assembled there one by one. “I am a strong girl, Ma’am” was her straight yet simple statement. As she spoke this I looked into her face and squeezed her cheeks as if to praise her. Imagine a girl of only grade VI making such a strong statement. Perhaps I was not that strong when I was of Aditi’s age, with so much of shield against difficulties, sorrows and pains from my parents and siblings and living in a cocooned world. Aditi’s remark set my thoughts rolling- I wondered what had made her say so- her ailing father or her circumstances at home. Life had taught the young girl about “life” at a very early stage. I only wish all my girls- the remaining 27 boarders’ of Gulmohar to be as strong a girl as Aditi, to face life with a smile when they grow into beautiful young ladies even when they face adversities.

Monday, 24 March 2014

Has anyone seen Padma?

Jaipur Hand
The first time I saw Padma Pegu, it was at Jawaharlal Nehru University (JNU) campus in New Delhi way back in 2008. My husband and I took Bus no. 615 from Munirka to Brahmaputra hostel, the last stop in the sprawling green JNU campus which is in sharp contrast to the otherwise urban concrete jungle of Delhi. JNU is located in south-west Delhi on the eroded off-shoot of the old fold mountain of the Aravalli. The university stands as a beacon of light for several students from the northeast corner of the country who flock there for higher studies.
I was sitting inside the bus while my husband was waiting outside. My in-laws were in Delhi from Dhemaji. For those of you who don’t know where Dhemaji is, let me first tell you that it is perhaps the worst flood-affected district not only in Assam but in India as well. The Brahmaputra valley is sandwiched between the eastern Himalayas to the north and the Meghalaya Plateau to the south. The river Brahmaputra runs from east to west throughout Assam (the river roughly bisecting the state latitudinally) from Dhemaji till Dhubri district before draining into Bangladesh.
The south-west monsoon winds during summer after picking moisture from the Bay of Bengal hits the Meghalaya plateau where it causes the heaviest rainfall on earth in Mawsynram (earlier Cherrapunji) in Meghalaya and heads northward towards the mighty Himalayas on the east. Rain-bearing cumulo-nimbus clouds strikes the lofty mountains bringing orographic or relief rainfall. Tributaries of river Brahmaputra like Subansiri, Jiadhal, Moridhal, Simen, Gai, Sissi etc. debouches in the plains of Dhemaji first after skirting the silent mountains of Arunachal. The river Brahmaputra and its innumerable tributaries become charged with strong currents and high volume of water, eroding river banks and embankments, and flushing out the excess water discharge on both sides of the river banks as flood water.
 Dhemaji district is situated in the north bank of river Brahmaputra, tucked in the easternmost corner of the state, bordered by Arunachal to the east and north, North Lakhimpur district on the west and the river Brahmaputra forming its southern margin thereby separating the districts of Tinsukia and Dibrugarh located on the south bank. The district headquarters is Dhemaji, a small and sleepy town. It is one of the remotest districts in the country, only a dot in the map. The Dhemaji railway station is by far the least busiest in the country.
Culturally the district is inhabited by the Ahoms, various tribes like the Bodos, Mishings, Deuris, Sonowal Kacharis, Lalungs, Chutiyas all belonging to the mongoloid race. The people belonging to different ethnic groups, both tribal and non-tribal, have been residing in peace and harmony ever since the time of the Ahom rule who ruled Assam for six hundred years (A.D. 1228 – A.D. 1826). Chaolung Sukapha (reign 1228-1268), a Tai prince hailing from the Yunnan province of present-day Peoples Republic of China, founded the Ahom kingdom. Of late various non-tribals like the Kalitas, Nepalis, Brahmins and the tea-tribes have also settled in here due to easy availability of land. The recent influx into the district has been the Bangladeshi locally called in Assam as the mia or goria. Dhemaji is cosmopolitan in a bucolic way and inter-caste marriages now-a-days between Ahoms and Mishings, Ahoms and Kalitas, Nepalis and Kalitas, Mishings and Brahmins, Mishings and Bodos . . . an endless list of crosses are common.
The locals may not be cash rich but they are rich agriculturally. The farmers cultivate paddy mainly along with lentils, mustard, vegetables and spices like ginger, garlic, turmeric. It is believed that the region is so fertile owing to the rich deposits of alluvial soil that if people throw rice grains, the paddy plant will germinate after a few days. Pigs in the backyard and fish in the pukhuri (pond) are also reared by every house-hold. Apart from this fruit trees like banana, jack fruit, guava, mango, pomegranate, coconut, betel-nut, jamun, robab tenga, bogori, jalphai, aamlokhi, xilikha etc. grows in plenty, every home appears to be a sea of green. Needless to say, the people of Dhemaji are also very simple and hospitable. Girls from this part of the state are naturally beautiful (with absolutely no body hair), their beauty owing much to the natural beauty of the place with fresh air and weather, clean and clear water, no iota of pollution; are very artistic and creative where every girl learns to weave the gamosa (towel) and the mekhela-chhador. But here, men drink a lot (Arunabh being no exception). To some degree, the drinking habit is a part of the culture of the region. In Assam, we have different names for the home-made rice-bear- Xaj (Ahoms), Apong (Mishings), Laupani, Sulai etc.; used in the religious and socio-cultural festivals and ceremonies including marriage, death anniversary, ancestor worship, community feasts etc.
My brother-in-law was a research fellow in JNU who stayed in the campus and my mother-in-law and father in-law had spent a few days with their daughter and her family. From the window of the bus I saw Ritu (my sister-in-law) with her husband Rupak. They have an infant Soontu.  The couple was followed by Padma with Soontu in her arms. She was the baby’s care-taker. The baby was all milky white, very much like his parents. My husband was also a research scholar in JNU pursuing his Ph. D. from CLE, while working in an evening college under Delhi University. But owing to our work we decided to stay outside JNU.
I kept the book I was reading inside my jhola (bag) and got down from the bus to greet my in-laws. Padma appeared to be a beautiful young girl of medium height. She was probably in her early 20s. She had the innocent looks which added another bud of beauty in her. There was no dangling fancy ear-rings and absolutely no sign of any make-up. Her beauty was plain, simple and natural that required no white-wash of artificiality.  She wore a colourful top, (probably from Sarojini Nagar market) with a gaale, a sarong wore in Arunachal Pradesh (Dhemaji borders Arunachal). She must have washed her hair as it was a Sunday and her knee-length hair appeared to be very straight and fine silk. She had an hour-glass figure. She had distinct mongoloid features although her eyes didn’t have prominent epicanthic fold unlike other people of her tribe. Her nose was small but was by no means wide and flat. Her bright, yellow skin without any trace of body hair glowed in the afternoon sun as she walked with Soontu cradled in their arms.
Padma belongs to the Mishing tribe (earlier known as Miri), the second largest tribe after the Bodos in Assam but the largest in Northeast India as hill-miris are present in Arunachal too. The Mishings belong to the Tibeto-Burmese mongoloid group and their language falls in the Indo-Tibetan language group. She is not very well-versed in her dialect though she speaks Assamese fluently. The tribe is believed to be descendents of hill-Miris of Arunachal Pradesh. They worship Donyi-Polo (the Sun and Moon resp.) and are animistic by faith although many have embraced Hinduism, some even converting to Christianity.
In Assam, the Mishings are compared to the Sardars of India who are known for cracking jokes on themselves. One such joke is about a Mishing fish-seller (The joke was cracked by Arunabh’s childhood friend, also a Mishing, Girin Ngate Chayingia) who sells his catch in the Dhemaji weekly market held every Thursday and Sunday. A customer comes to buy fish and asks for the rate of the fish. Fish-seller replies- “Rs. Six Hundred only, Sir”. Customer- “Ram, Ram, Rs. Six Hundred? How come when the river Brahmaputra is so near?” The cunning Mishing fish-seller retorts- “Sir, your house in also very near to the SBI bank. But does it mean that the bank’s money is entirely yours?”
During her stay in Delhi, Padma picked-up a few Hindi words and could communicate in broken Hindi with jata hu, ata hu, khata hu, peeta hu types (yes, in Assamese pani is khana not peena and we have a gender neutral verb unlike in Hindi. Padma hails from a remote village in Samarajan in Dhemaji district. I came to know later that since her parents were too poor she and her other two sisters- Asha and Chanu work as helpers, she in Delhi at my sister-in-law’s house and her sisters worked as domestic helper in Assam. All three daughters supported their parents who were in their fifties. Their house stood on a stilted platform owing to the perennial floods that devastates entire villages spread all across the watershed areas of the tributaries of river Brahmaputra when the dark rain-bearing clouds hovers in the sky. Padma’s chang ghar was a ramshackle made of timber, bamboo, thatch and straw, plastered with old calendar and newspapers to mask the countless holes that dotted the walls. Their house had to be rebuilt year after year owing to the damages done by the floods. A distant Assam-type house in their village was all submerged with silt after the floods, so much so that only the slanting roof and the top portion of what was once the wall of a house, was visible.
My first visit to Dhemaji was in 2001 while I was pursuing M.A. in Geography from Jamia Millia Islamia in New Delhi. This was also the initial year of my relationship with Arunabh (also my cousin, cross-cousin to be precise, he being my father’s step-sister’s son). I don’t remember if I was ever taken by my parents before in my growing up years to my aunt’s place in Dhemaji. My Deota was the SDO of Dhemaji in the mid 70s, before I was born.
In 2001, I went alone to Dhemaji from Kadam in Lakhimpur where I stayed with Nilakshee Hazarika, my friend from GP Hostel of Jamia. I took a bus from Lakhimpur town in the morning. My friend Nilakshee and her elder brother dropped me at the bus stand. I was full of questions once I took my seat next to the window in the left-hand side, had to request the co-passenger to offer me his seat so that I could capture every scene and scenery in my mind’s lens. I told him this was my first visit to Dhemaji while I silently thought with a smile that this beautiful naturally endowed place will be my future home, my sasural (in-law’s place). On the left I could see the meandering rivers (with ox-bow lakes) calmly gliding by as it crossed the national highway. Fishermen in boats, young girls and ladies with koloh (brass water pots) or bathing on the river bank, cows and goats tethered in the grassy fields nearly. In the distance the foothills of Arunachal Himalayas could be easily seen as one traverse on N.H. 52. The greenery is fresh and pure. However, while I crossed a place called Samarajan, there was a drastic change in the topography. The place left an eerie feeling engraved in my mind for long. What I saw was a sea of silt till the horizon with several houses buried in the silt, with dark and dead uprooted trees being the only witness of the past devastation. The place was all barren and deserted. Like in the desert, sand-dunes gulping up everything but leaving only the ‘head’ before burying alive a human-being. The difference is the sand in the desert and silt in the drainage basin.
Even middle-class families who had large tracts of lands where they sowed paddy were rendered homeless overnight. The floods knows no rich or poor, no tribal or non-tribal, for when it comes, it comes alone- ‘before’ like a snake in a chicken-coop to devour the chicks  and ‘after’ like Bordoichila- the strong local wind that blows in April-May in Assam which causes much destruction to life and property in no time. Villagers stand as one in such a time, their grief, their loss and pain binds them intrinsically. Kids, old folks, women and even men shed tears, some silently while others don’t hide their emotions, children who become orphans for life, newly-married woman who become widow at a young age, parents who are too old to work who lose their son- the only earning member of the family- all lost to the floods. My husband told me once that there are people who had a happy-go-lucky-life before the annual floods forced them to beg in places like Guwahati or other better-off towns in Assam. In Assam, the Brahmaputra is a life-giver but it is also a river of sorrow for the people.
Villagers, even kids, who knows too well about the vagaries of nature leave for higher, safer places with their cows, goats, cocks and what other live-stock they rear in the brief non-flood period. In the flood-prone areas of Assam, particularly in the areas inhabited by the Mishing tribe, the house structure is different from the other tribal/ non-tribal people.  Every house stands on a wooden platform with the ground floor being used for keeping live-stock and the family members occupying the space above. During floods, they catch fish which is found in plenty hence the flood affected people are to some extent are not deficient in proteins. After the water recedes (and this after the politicians do an aerial check of the flood damage of the flood-affected areas and its people, their lives, their houses and their standing crops); the people carry on with their life, again building their lives from scratch. Village youths get together to make bamboo bridges. Children who couldn’t attend classes owing to the floods because their school premises have been converted to flood-refugee camps, walk miles and miles or cycle down the village roads for education. It is here in Assam that some HSLC students of a particular centre were not able to arrive on the examination on time because the boatman turned up late at the ghat. Apparently he had a hangover.
The pukhuri (pond) during the rainy season is a breeding ground for fishes but the same pukhuri which dries up partially during the water-deficient days, before the monsoon outburst in the region, is changed into a paddy-sowing basin by some clever village bloke. The villagers no longer wait for government aid to trickle in even though post-flood period is the time of maximum risk as all water-borne diseases like diarrhoe can thrive at this time.
The eastern Himalayas where north-east India is hidden from mainstream India are a nature-lovers treasure-trove. It is here that the lofty Himalayas running from Kashmir in the west to Arunachal in the east takes a sharp hair-pin bend to blend with the Patkai Hills, Barail range before submerging in the waters of Bay of Bengal only to re-appear as Andaman and Nicobar group of islands. A carpet of green with the smells of wild orchids is captivating beyond description. But sadly much has been eroded due to human greed, lost forever due to rampant destruction and a great part due to ignorance of the local populace. Here, “the water tastes like water and the fish tastes like fish”. Development in this region is only a word to be found in the government files and not miserly used by politicians and bureaucrats alike. Here, construction of a bridge across any tributary in the Brahmaputra or in river Brahmaputra itself may take more than a ‘generation year’ to complete, meaning grandchildren often hearing from their grandfather, who has in turn heard from their grandfather which is passed on to their grandson,  and so on and so forth, that a bridge will be built. But how soon, only time can tell. People who could run to safer areas when the flood water stealthily creeps in thank their stars for living to tell the tale about a mother and daughter, locked in a final embrace, tied to the latent umbilical cord even in death, as they meet a watery grave in one such floods.
Padma’s youngest sister, the fourth daughter in the family was abandoned in the very hospital she was born. Her father told the doctor that if his wife delivered yet another daughter, he would only take his wife back home and not the new-born girl child. After the delivery the wife went back home, alone. Dr Medhi of Silapathar was the only doctor then in upper Assam’s north bank in the then Dhemaji sub-division, the remoteness made more so due to flood havoc that cut-off the place from the rest of Assam for most parts of the year. The kind doctor and his doctor wife accepted the new-born in their family where she got a shelter for life. Well, that is another story altogether.
My brother-in-law after completing his research moved to Manipal University in Karnataka where he joined as a faculty. His family joined him later. Padma decided to return home- to Samarajan in Dhemaji. She had saved some money and hoped to open something on her own in her native place. She had enough of Hindi while in Delhi, no tongue-twisting south Indian language for her to learn, she decided. For most Assamese, all south-Indians are Madrasis, like all Hindi-speakers are Marwaris. She returned during the Christmas-New Year time i.e. 2-3 weeks before Magh Bihu is celebrated in Assam. There are three Bihus celebrated in Assam. The first- Rongali or Bohag is celebrated in mid-April to welcome spring and to usher in the Assamese New Year. Magh or Bhogali Bihu is celebrated in mid-January, when the farmers’ granary is full, to mark the end of the harvest with a community feast and the third Kati or Kongali Bihu in September/ October when farmers plant tulsi (basil) in their field and lit sakis (earthern lamps) to pray to the Almighty for a good harvest.
Padma’s mahi (maternal aunt, younger than one’s mother) from Gogamukh had invited her for Bihu. Gogamukh is a small town on NH-52 as one leaves North Lakhimpur district and enters Dhemaji. One may find it strange to see Bihari vendors selling chana-chur, jhalmuri, bogori, jolphai in cylindrical wicker basket even in this remote part of the country. Padma was the only one in her village who had crossed Assam and reached the country’s capital. Hence, she was a star in her village plus in all the areas where her aunts, uncles and cousins lived and worked viz. in Lakhimpur, Majuli (yes, the largest riverine island in the world), Sonitpur, Golaghat, Jorhat, Sibsagar and Dibrugarh in upper Assam, in both north and south banks. These places are dotted with tea-gardens, where both unskilled and semi-skilled labour is in high demand. It won’t be wrong to surmise that one Mishing may be related to another Mishing, as I discovered from Madhumita Doley, my Mishing friend-cum-classmate from school and college days. Almost anyone with a Mishing surname- Pegu, Kutum, Taid, Mili etc. was her relative.
Padma’s looks beautified more so by her fine clothes are a major attraction for her young cousins. She treats her other distant cousins (here every Mishing is in some way related to the other) to the salty, S-shaped cookies, the only fancy-looking eatable found in the village shop which sells rice, dal, oil, salt, candle, match-box and a few spices apart from the usual tamul-paan (betel-nut and betel leaf) and bidis.
Feasting over, Padma is about to be dropped back home by her mahi. They are waiting in the national highway for the early morning bus which will take them to her home. The highway is a highway to hell- I mean if you want to shake all your 206 bones at one go. Here people joke that the road is not full of pot-holes but pot-holes are full on the road, present after every millimeter on the highway. During the non-monsoon period here, buses take a ride over the silt, pebbles, cobbles of the bank, cross the shallow water of the river to reach the other bank for the absence of a bridge. All passengers are safe except the bone therapy during the ride.
Padma and her mahi wave at the bus heading towards the district headquarters Dhemaji. It is a night-super bus which plies between Guwahati and Dhemaji. It is comfortable and spacious on non-rush days. But now due to the Bihu rush, morhas have been placed in the aisle to accommodate the short-distance travelers.  Since Padma and her mahi has to get down before reaching Dhemaji town they occupy the front seat with Padma occupying the one next to the window on the right-side. She always enjoys the bus ride except when fellow passengers vomit inside the bus. Once on her way to Golaghat to visit her other aunt she had a bitter experience. She had occupied the last left-hand side window seat. A lady 3-4 seats before her felt pukish and out popped the lady’s head to vomit. Before Padma realized what was happening, a white, sticky substance smeared her left cheek. This was 3-4 years back but she always remained alert while inside the bus from then on. She loves to smell the raw dust of the village, to watch the greenery of her native place, something she missed in Delhi, as the landscape changes with the ride after every second like a film reel. Even the greenery in JNU in Delhi appears to be artificial green to her now.
It is winter time when dense fog settles all along the highway, when dawn of the day has set in but the sun is still not bright. Part of the road has caved in at a few places but the bus driver is aware of every pot-holes and ditches. Some of the passengers from Guwahati who took the night journey are still asleep. Padma and her mahi who was still chewing pan-tamul, chatted with each other in their normal decibel unmindful of the sleeping passengers. Suddenly the bus comes to a grinding halt and passengers are tossed around. Padma feels an excruciating pain in her body for a few seconds before she faints . . .
When she regains her senses, she finds herself in Dhemaji Civil Hospital. Two days has passed – 17th and 18th January and she couldn’t recollect what those two days were in her life. Slowly her thoughts weaved a web of clear recollection of the bus accident. Something like a truck crashing against the bus. The pain was still unbearable for her and she felt dopey. She saw her mother and two sisters. Her alcoholic father was not around. Her mother’s eyes were like two swollen ice-bergs ready to melt. Her immediate sister Asha was soothing her by her bedside. Her head was bandaged. There had been six stitches. She enquired about her mahi and was informed that the elderly lady suffered some minor bruises in the accident. She was lucky to survive the accident but unlucky because her right hand was gone. Her lotus stem-like hand, it was truncated out of her body. Her beautiful feminine body minus the right-hand looked incomplete, like a fruit-bearing tree with its man branch chopped. Her hour-glass figure looked disfigured now. On her left hand, only two fingers remained- the little finger and the ring finger. The middle, index finger and the thumb was gone like her right-hand. The moment she realized this she cried like a widow. She would never be one because no one would marry her. Of what use was her ring-finger now?
She learnt how to weave at a very young age after dropping out of school. But now she will never be able to weave the colourful and vibrant Mishing mekhela-chaddor with her own hands in the tat-xal (handloom) anymore. With her hands she would caress the calf and the goats, fed the fat pigs which her family reared. She will never be able to prepare xukan mach (sun-dried fish/ smoked fish) and cook the tasty gahori (pork) with bah-gaas (bamboo-shoot) and bhoot joloria (the hottest chilly in the world) which her family relished. How will she fetch water from the pukhuri. No more flapping her hands and gyrating her body to the rhythmic beat of dhool, pepa, gogona for the Bihu dance or the much loved gumrag dance on the Mishing festival Pohrag. How will she live now, what will she do, how will she survive, who will take care of her? Will her parents support her for life in their poverty? Will her sisters and their husbands, when they get married? All these thoughts made her mind heavy.
Once released from the hospital, Padma would sit and brood, sit and brood, as day stretched to night. Her father who came home drunk would spend all his money which he earned on sulai, the country-made liquor (the home-made apong­- rice-beer was preserved for festivals like the Ali-Aye-Ligang). Very soon her two sisters left home because they couldn’t be without work for too long. Her mother was Padma’s only life support. There were times when she felt like plunging herself in the nearby pukhuri (pond). She felt helpless and hopeless. Soon the kids of her village ridiculed her. “Haat naikiya bai, haat naikia bai” they mocked at her. Her father would bash and kick her, even when she was monthly sick, for she couldn’t give him money, money to drink, to drink and drown in his misery. To drink and die.
Readers’ you may want to know what happened to Padma after this. I was in Gurgaon at that time when I rang up my mother-in-law in Dhemaji (saved as DheMa in my mobile) to ask about Padma’s well-being. This is what my mother-in-law narrated to me over the phone about what happened to Padma. That was before September, 2011. Once the call was over, my mind drifted to the busy MG Road in Bangalore (now Bengaluru) to attend the four days training programme on Digital Image Processing and Geographic Information System in the Regional Remote Sensing Service Centre. I was searching for a book in the open book stall in the pathway to gift my boy-friend Arunabh as a souvenir because he was a voracious reader and happily picked up Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus by John Gray. When I was about to pay for the book my eyes suddenly feel on the book-keeper. Both his fore arms were missing from the elbow down. What I saw in his eyes was strength and determination for he lifted the book and with some difficulty handed the books (I took another book) to me.
My sisters-in-law and I on our part did what we could to financially assist her. I don’t even know if the money we gave her was made to good use or whether her abusive alcoholic father snatched it away from her for his drinks. Two years later I relocated to Guwahati in my home state. Padma was on and off my mind. In 2012 London Olympics when I was in Bokakhat (where Kaziranga National Park is located) I saw how Natalia Partyka of Poland played table-tennis in the London Olympics. She was born without a right hand and forearm.
When I asked about Padma again over the telephone, my mother-in-law informed me that she left with a person. I was elated to hear the news for I assumed that some kind-hearted person accepted her the way she was and was even willing to spend the rest of his life with her as husband and wife. Here, my mother-in-law corrected me by stating that she left with a Hindi-speaking person, probably a north Indian. Immediately my thoughts drifted to the villages in Sohna in Haryana where I had conducted field survey along with my classmates during M.A. under the guidance of Prof. Rocket Ibrahim of Jamia Millia Islamia, New Delhi. In the four villages where the socio-economic survey was conducted I had met young girls from Assam who were in all probability sold off to families of young boys, boys who looked no more than 18 years; and elderly men, men who were old enough to be the girl’s father. In places like Delhi, Haryana, Uttar Pradesh, the Punjab and Rajasthan where the sex rate is highly skewed, young girls from impoverished families from remote places in the north-east, West Bengal etc. are lured by nefarious men with a promise to either marry or under the pretext of providing them with a job. Innocent girls are first enticed and later trapped and exploited in sex racket and when they realize the ulterior motive of the ‘good Samaritan’ it is too late. In some cases, the family of the girl receives a paltry sum, in other cases the money never comes. In Assam due to perennial floods many have become forced refugees. Children and women living in flood relief camps become easily gullible to human trafficking in such conditions.
Padma could be in Paltan Bazar in Guwahati, in Sonagachi in Kolkata, GB Road in Delhi, sold by human traffickers to a pimp. She may be living in a bordello in any of the red-light areas of the country with a new identity as Champa, Rupa, Kamala, et. al. But deep in my mind I pray to God that the Padma whom I saw for the first and the last time is still the same Padma today. I pray that the man, with whom she was last seen, took her for the Jaipur Hand*.
By Karobi Gogoi Borgohain


*The Jaipur Hand, like the Jaipur Foot, helps disabled persons (disabled by birth or by accidents) to regain mobility and dignity by providing artificial limbs. The organization is based in Jaipur, Rajasthan.


Padma- how she would fetch water from the river and learn swimming in the noi. Her attaining puberty.


Sunday, 31 March 2013

Life in a boarding


Aditi is unable to connect to her mother on the phone. It’s her and the boarders’ phone call day. Every Thursday and Sunday the boarders’ of Gulmohar call their parents, 4 minutes on Thursdays and 8 minutes on Sundays. She (and K. Padmini, both from Gangtok) is the only one out of the 28 boarders who didn’t get the line. The rest all signed in the phone call register.

The SA 1 examination is going on. Hence, some of the girls study till late night while the others are fast asleep. Aditi too fell asleep thinking she would be unable to speak to her parents.

I get a call somewhere between 10:00-10:30 pm. Generally I don’t pick up calls from boarders parents after 9:30 pm. But today I did when the office phone buzzed and “Aditi’s Ma” appeared on the screen. I went to room no. 4B. Her bed is no. 3, in one corner facing the window (in Gulmohar we call it facing DPS Guwahati). She was fast asleep.

When the rouser call rings in the morning at 5:30 am almost everyone wakes up on time except Aditi. When I take a round to check if everyone is awake and brushed their teeth, she would still be sleeping. I would go to her bed and wake her up gently. Once I was in such a round and as expected she was fast asleep, all curled up in bed. “Wake up, Aditi. Wake up, Aditi”, I told her. She opened her little eyes. I sternly commanded her to get up from bed and go. She was still in a half-sleep-half-awake state when she replied “Go where, Ma’am?” It was for the PT/ Yoga classes I meant. Even though I acted as if I was angry with her for asking such a question when she ought to know her daily schedule followed in the hostel, deep inside I was not. Her question only made me smile from inside.

She spoke to her mother first and asked her why she didn’t keep the phone with her. She told her mother that her tuck was almost over and asked her to come from Imphal to Guwahati to meet her and bring her the special Maggie cooked by her mother. In the hostel, most of the boarders eat uncooked Maggie as they eat Wai-Wai ­- raw.
She asked her mother about her father’s health, if the lump in his face has subsided. In all her innocence she beseeched her mother to pray to the Almighty to cure her father. She was crying when she spoke those words. Hope the one above us sees her tears and listens to her prayer. She later spoke to her father in Hindi and asked him about his well-being. Her tears stopped immediately as she started the conversation with him, as if she didn’t wish him to know that she had cried a moment earlier. I could sense a grim in her face as she spoke to him. She asked her father to “kick that doctor”- the one who was treating him.

I must have waited for more than 4 minutes by her bed. Shabana, Aditi’s roommate got up from her bed and climbed on to Aditi’s bed when she became emotional. Krishna, her other roommate who was sleeping peacefully until then too woke up when she was on the phone. Donu Kena, her Arunachali roommate had just entered the room after studying in the study room when I was about to leave their room. I wished all the 4 roommates good night.
Aditi is a very sweet girl even though she doesn’t spend much time in studying. She was in Sanskriti- The Gurukul, Guwahati before joining Royal Global School, Guwahati. She was my nephew Jonathan’s classmate in her previous school. She is in grade VI A now and seems to know her lessons well since she had already studied in class IV and V in Sanskriti (under ICSE) what she is studying now in grade VI in RGS (under CBSE).

The next day she had her mathematics examination. I went to see if all the girls had assembled in the corridor of the hostel before going down for breakfast. She saw Ginima, the security personnel, making pleats in Ritika (the youngest boarder of Gulmohar) and Shabana’s hair. She too requested Ginima to pleat her hair. While I was watching Ginima arranging Aditi’s hair I saw that Aditi’s left hand had some cut marks. I asked her how she hurt herself. She narrated: “Ma’am, while I was taking out the paint bottles from the rack under the study table, I hand accidentally hit the edge of the table and . . .” She made some strange sound like ‘dharang’ to express what happened later to her. I understood what she meant to say. She never came to me crying seeking some comfort or to ask for medicines to Hemlata, the resident nurse. “Had it happened to delicate girls like Urvashi from grade VII, she would have come writhing in pain, with tears in her eyes and even if it was just for a very minor scratch”, I laughed while saying this to her and the other boarders who had assembled there one by one. “I am a strong girl, Ma’am” was her straight yet simple statement. As she spoke this I looked into her face and squeezed her cheeks as if to praise her. Imagine a girl of only grade VI making such a strong statement. Perhaps I was not that strong when I was of Aditi’s age, with so much of shield against difficulties, sorrows and pains from my parents and siblings and living in a cocooned world. Aditi’s remark set my thoughts rolling- I wondered what had made her say so- her ailing father or her circumstances at home. Life had taught the young girl about “life” at a very early stage. I only wish all my girls- the remaining 27 boarders’ of Gulmohar to be as strong a girl as Aditi, to face life with a smile when they grow into beautiful young ladies even when they face adversities.

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

The Horseshoe


Nothing could be as rejuvenating for me as a long walk, a walk when my thought process reaches the climax. Every man is a loser at one point of time in their life yet there’s something that keeps the wheel of life moving.
I lost my husband more than 2 years back. Until his death, I have never encountered death at a close range. I lost even my belongings while shifting from Gurgaon to Guwahati and my 2 pet cats. Perhaps God wanted me to grow stronger with each loss.
I have tried to erase my horrendous past but it is thoughts which keep hitting my mind time and again. I try to be as cheerful as possible lest nobody knows the trauma I have gone through. I have observed in some people that the mental scar is visible even in their face. I try to find out in the mirror if I also look like them, with the mental agony engraved in my face.
The other day I had walked down from my mother’s home in Rukmini Nagar in Dispur to my office in Ganeshguri. I had only 1 winter jacket, that too a light one, a gift from my friend Pooja from Gurgaon. I was financially broke and felt ashamed of asking money from my Ma at this age. I knew I had to get another winter jacket to keep me safe from the cold. With my first salary I thought I would spend a part of it on a noble cause. As I reached Ganeshguri, I stopped at a shop which displayed ‘discount’ and I went straight in. I got not one but two winter garments- one jacket and a sweater.
As I was nearing the Ganeshguri flyover and crossing the foot-path I think I saw a beggar with his leg missing. Without even turning for once I took out a coin from my wallet and was about to throw it in his begging bowl when I realized he didn’t had any. I had the coin in my hand and to my embarrassment I didn’t know how best to hide my faux pas. I saw trinkets and rings in neat rows placed above an old cloth. I saw a copper ring and asked him how much it cost. I only wear the wedding ring- a small and simple ring which Arunabh and I got from South Extension market in New Delhi before our wedding. I knew I will never wear the copper ring, there’s plenty in my Ma’s jewellery box which she has collected from her travels across Assam.
I was still wondering what to buy from him to cover my embarrassment, when I saw a horseshoe. A horseshoe is considered to bring good luck to a home if it placed (2 ends facing upwards) in the entrance of the house. I was happy to have seen it in this man’s stall and gladly purchased it for Rs 50.
The person may be physically- handicapped but he didn’t beg for a living. I salute him for his strong determination, for living a life of dignity. He reminded me of another person- a book seller in MG Road of Bangalore who didn’t have hands but who still sold books in the open in the busy MG Road.
I could have got the copper ring instead of shelling out Rs 50 at the time when I was in dire straits. Deep in my mind I knew that someday good luck will come knocking at my door and when it does I will think about the man without his leg.